Rwanda day 3



A photo slideshow by Smilebox

Today we were back in the school but in the Primary 1 class.  It was more of the same chaos today but maybe a little worse.  We brought a few balls and some balloons.  It was a madhouse trying to get one with all of the pushing and shoving and kids crying because they didn't get one or because someone took theirs or their balloon popped.  Part of me thinks the teachers are probably wondering who we are thinking we can come in and do these things because it makes their job harder controlling the kids.  They are extremely nice and hospitable but sometimes I can see in their faces how they do not enjoy breaking up the crowds.  When we were in the P1 class today we taught them a few songs also then we watched them finish their lessons.  I felt bad we came in and interrupted their schooling so I asked the teacher if he would continue with the lesson so I could take some pictures.  As we were watching Brogan noticed the teacher was teaching them wrong when it came to <,>,=.  He had it totally backward.  I wanted to correct him so badly but who am I to come in and take over his class when I am only going to be there one day.  I spoke with the Headmaster about it and found out some very interesting information about the school and the teacher.  I will talk about those in a seperate post so that it can get the attention it needs. 

I have so much going on in my head right now:

~How much I miss Jeremy and the boys

~How I pray Brogan doesn't get sick here or once we get home

~How I pray the boys don't get sick or hurt since we don't have insurance to cover them right now

~How I pray for Jeremy to get a job and I know how much he is struggeling with that right now and being able to provide for our family

~Then how I see the need over here for basic fundamental stuff like education and qualified teachers and how blessed we truly are

~Part of me thinks we should be here to help but then how would we pay for it?

~How I want Jeremy and the boys to come see all of this but then how would we pay for that?

~Did I say I miss all 5 of my bloys!?!

~Did I say how thankful I am that God chose me to live where I live and have the things I have yet part of me feels like we should be somewher else, doing something else.

Everyday-several times a day- I thank God for all of my many blessings and then I quickly turn around and ask him for a job for Jeremy quickly and to give him peace about that situation.  I know He already knows what I am thinking so I just tell him.  But, then I feel selfish and wonder why I ask and can't just trust Him.  Scared, pride, you name I got it.  Faith, trust, I have it too.  It is just harder to hang on to those sometimes.  It is the other way around here.  They have nothing but faith and trust because they don't have much, if anything, that they are scared of loosing.

Lord, Please help me to trust in you and your plan.  I know it is perfecf and you have it all worked out.  I trust you and your will for our family.  Please help Jeremy and I to stay strong and steadfast in what you have planned for us and our family.  Amen